Day 14

Well...the good news is that I did not gain another pound this morning.  Of course...I can't really get excited about the pound that I LOST because it's the third time I've lost this same pound.  I think it obviously has some attachment issues and simply cannot bear to part from my body for more than a day or so at a time.  Hopefully, the third time is a charm!  I have exactly one more week on this crazy journey and believe me...I am more than ready to get off this train ride!  It's been....something.  I had no idea it would be so tough.  Well...that's not really true.  I DID think it would be tough.  But I was expecting the toughness to come the FIRST week.  NOT the second.  I figured if I could make it through the first week, then all would be grand and easy sailing.  Hmmpf.  SO not the case.  Anyway....the end is in sight.  ONE MORE WEEK!!!!!  I can do this!  On a happy note...I made a kick butt and so totally delicious salsa salad last night.  TO die for delicious!!!  It had tomatoes chopped up, and shallots, cilantro, jalapeno, avocado, a little lemon juice and a pinch of sea salt.  And it was SO DIVINE!!!!  I inhaled it!  YUM!  Broiled myself a piece of flounder to go along with it and it was good too...but the salsa was by far my favorite course!  Going now to whip myself up a little bit for breakfast!  Only one more week to go!  I think I can....I think I can...I think I can!

Day 13

Deep breath...let me see if I can get through this post without cursing and YELLING and SCREAMING.  Deep breath.  For the past 12 days I have been so good.  I have eaten SO well.  I have consumed more green crap than you can even get your brain around.  How is it going you ask?  Well...all of my hard work was rewarded today with another one pound GAIN on the scale this morning.  I had to weigh myself three times to be sure that I was, indeed seeing it correctly.  And as  I am standing there, taking this in I'm thinking to myself..."are you even KIDDING me?!!!!!  Another pound???!!!!  Going UP???!!!!!!!".  To say that I was not amused is just about the understatement of the year.  I'm mad.  I'm way past mad.  I'm just plain old aggravated to death.  And when I think about  how many POUNDS of spinach and carrots and eggplant and zucchini I have consumed over the past 12 days....well...my vision starts to blur and I just get plain old pissed!  Not only have I been consuming truckloads of rabbit food, I have been hitting the gym more faithfully than I have in WEEKS!!!!  Months!  Good, HARD workouts.  The kind that you just want to crawl home from when you are done.  All of that combined has gotten me....what?  Well...lucky me...it's gotten me a three pound weight gain.  Isnt' that just special?!  It just really makes me embrace and look forward to the next 8 days of this stupid, nuts detox journey I so stupidly decided to take on.  I mentioned quitting yesterday and Kyra told me that I can't.  That if I do quit before I finish rebuilding all my good stuff, then I'll just regain all the weight back that I lost.  Well....My thoughts on THAT are that I have already gained back THREE of the nine that I lost.  Heck...by the time this thing is over in another 9 days...if things continue on their CURRENT track, I should be 3 pounds UP over where I started from!!!!!!  Way back on day one!   Nice.  Grrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!  (insert foot stomping and kicking the door here)  And so...on day 13...I am FRUSTRATED.  And deflated, disappointed. aggravated, angry, agitated...and as always...craving pizza.  ***SIGH**** (insert head banging here)

Day 12

Well, after being back on the wagon and being very good yesterday, I woke up to have gained a pound today.  Grrrr.  That just makes me mad.  My feelings on the cleanse journey right about now?  I'm done with it.  Over it.  Tired of it.  Frustrated with it.  And I WANT some pizza.  Just saying.  I still have another 10 days here to get through.  I know I can do it...I just don't want to.  But Kyra says I have to finish it now or I will gain back all the weight I just lost.  Of course...it seems my body already IS fighting to gain it back, despite the fact that I am still very much on the cleanse.  Grrrrr.  I'll see it through...because that's the way I am.  But I am not loving it.  As a matter of fact...today I'm just grumpy about it.  I do not want carrots for breakfast.  I want eggs.  And I do not want salad for lunch.  I want enchiladas.  And for dinner.  I don't even have to tell you that I don't want grilled chicken and zuchinni.  I WANT PIZZA!!!!!!!  However...my daddy always said that I was "old enough for my wants not to hurt me".  Whatever that means.  For me...it means I will not be having eggs, enchiladas OR pizza today.  Sigh.  I guess I'll just grab my carrots and go hit the stupid treadmill....again.

And On The 10th Day...

...she cheated.  That's right.  She was weak and hungry and tired of carrots and squash and rabbit food.  And she caved.  And what did she sin with, you ask?  Popcorn.  Hot, steamy, buttery movie theater popcorn.  And a diet coke.  That's right I did!  My friend told me this morning when I told her how I was craving waffles, that even if I did eat them, I would immediately find that it just didn't taste nearly as good as I thought it would since my taste buds have changed.  That I would be disappointed.  But I'm here to tell ya...that I was NOT disappointed.  As a matter of fact, it was the best darned popcorn I think I have ever eaten.  And the diet coke?  Divine.  I'm disappointed in myself tonight...but then, not really.  I'm not eating anything else today...save for one more shake and some carrots maybe as a nightcap.  And I'll be right back on my veggie wagon tomorrow.  So there it is...I'm a cheater.  Weak.  Pathetic.  Spineless.  A cheater.  But you know what...I'd totally do it again...because it was JUST THAT YUMMY!!!!!  :)  Tomorrow is a new day right!  Bring on day 11!

Day 10

Well...this detox journey is not perfect.  And while it's been MUCH easier than I thought it would be, it isn't always easy.  For instance...this morning the scale showed I had gained one pound.  Boo!  And...to top it off, I woke up wanting waffles for breakfast.  Like REALLY wanting them.  Not carrots.  Not apples.  Not avocado.  Waffles.  That was a tough moment.  But I survived.  I ate the carrots and strawberries and headed out the door for some grass mowing therapy.  It helped a great deal.  Now...because I am a glutton for punishment, I'm going to grab a quick shower and take my baby girl to see "How to Train a Dragon" at the movie theatre.  Hopefully, the delicious smells of popcorn won't be my undoing!  You can eat a meal while there and I plan to do that.  I plan to have a salad and bring my own olive oil and vinegar dressing.  That will hopefully help curb the popcorn/crap cravings!  Ahhh...only 11 more days until real food again!  Yes...I have to say that on day 10, I am struggling a bit.  It's NOT easy today!

Detox Day 9

Well, I'm down 9 pounds this morning and still rolling along just fine with this detox journey.  No real cravings.  Desires...yes.  Cravings...no.  The nasty shakes are tasting really quite good now, 9 days into it.  Go figure.  It's hard to believe I was having a hard time getting them down on day 2 and 3!  I guess I've come a long way and my taste buds have been nicely reset!  I see a difference in some of my clothes.  That's exciting!  I've worn things that I have not worn in AGES for the past couple of days now.  Don't get me wrong.  There is at LEAST another 9 pounds to go!  But I'll take my nine any day!  I've had a great week in the gym and have worked out every day this week.  I'm back in there this morning with two good buddies, so it should be a good time!  And a good work out!  I get to add chicken, and/or fish to my diet this weekend!  So tomorrow night we are grilling some salmon!   Yum!  Oh...and brown rice!  What a treat!  Yippeee!  I never thought I'd make it this far.  What's funnier, is that I thought I'd be DESPERATE for fish or chicken by now.  But unbelievably...I'm not missing it.  I just don't care!  I'm just so surprised by this whole detox thing!  Really, really surprised.  Only 12 days to go after this one!  Bring it on!

Detox Day 7

Well, it's a beautiful spring morning here on Day 7 of the detox journey and ALL IS WELL!  I have lost a total of 7.6 pounds so far and am feeling GREAT!  I am sleeping great, feeling great, not craving ANYTHING really.  Though I will freely admit that I could eat a pizza if it were offered and under my nose.  Food smells good to me out in the world...but I don't feel like I have to have it.  This morning I find myself not wanting ANYTHING.  Not food, not drink...not my shake.  Nothing.  I'm not missing coffee or tea or caffeine in any form.  Not missing chocolate.  And thankfully, I don't think I'm missing salt nearly as much as I was.  I actually find myself looking forward to my spinach salad each evening.  Tomorrow, Kyra says I can have chicken or fish and brown rice.  But to tell ya the truth, I am not sure that I want it.  I'm happy where I am.  I may just wait until Sunday to add all of that back in.  We'll see!  And so...that's where I am right now.

What else?  I'm sore...for one.  I worked out at the gym yesterday with two friends.  It was such fun and I'm glad to feel that familiar ache that says I actually DID something there in the gym yesterday.  I had to be very careful, as my shoulder is STILL bugging me.  Man...I am never going to paint again.  It just sets me up for too much difficulty.  It's still swelling and inflamed and angry.  Kyra keeps putting me back line again, but with all the swelling and spasms it doesn't seem to hold.  Although...what she did yesterday really does feel SO much better today.  Finally my neck feels free of it all and it is ONLY my shoulder that is aching.  I will totally take that!

On the schedule today?  I need some grocery basics...water, soap, lotion...those little essentials.  I bought Max a bunch of clothes yesterday and they DO NOT FIT...again!  So I have to return all of those.  He is officially in the men's sizes now.  YIKES!  I can't believe how fast both boys are growing.   They were such little peanuts for the longest time!  But they are peanuts NO more!  Then I am off to the gym with Kyra to walk off and work off some of this soreness.  Clara has gymnastics tonight.  She is doing SO well in her class!  She can do a back walkover now from standing and great hand stands and cartwheels, round offs and rolls.  She can do her front roll on the balance beam all by herself and stay on there...she really is doing a great job!  And is having a blast too!  I think that's about all our day is going to hold today.  I guess I should also grab something to throw in the crockpot for the troops tonight that can cook while I am out and about.  Gymnastics at 6 p.m. kind of cuts into my dinner cooking time!

That's the update at our house!  Day seven is looking GREAT!